You’re wildly inappropriate, generally apathetic, and seem bent on losing your job. It sounds a lot like you’re burned out and starting to self-sabotage. But, remember, it’s never too late to reignite the passion you had for education and turn your profession into something so much bigger.
You desperately need a new way of doing things. Maybe try an experiential method that reimagines the goals of education and see where that gets you? If that doesn’t work… maybe try a new career?